Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Sentimental pain

For reasons that defy logic and I can't begin to explain, I decided to run the East Hill Loop this evening after work.

The East Hill Loop was the staple run of the Wausau Hill Runners, a dedicated group of harriers that consisted of three Wausau Daily Herald staffers, Dave, Kyle and Me. We would attempt to meet Wednesday mornings before work at the Y. From there we would run up winding city streets that climb the hill on the East Side of Wausau.

For those not familiar with our little slice of paradise in central Wisconsin, the hill is steep climb out of the Wisconsin River Valley. It's not the Rockies of Colorado or the Palisades of NYC, but it is a steep pitch, maybe three quarters of a mile long.

Dave picked the run because he liked pain. So he would look for running routes that featured the best and longest hills. At first I hated him for this, but then, I too, grew to love the hills. My resurgence as a runner began on that hill, what, five years ago now?

Today I ran the four mile route in 36 minutes and 11 seconds. Since I can barely remember my times from the Hillrunners era, I'm not sure this is a personal record, but I think it is.

Dave, do you read this? Let me know.

Dave marked all the routes, found out their distance and kept track of all our times. He wore this old-school LCD stopwatch around his neck, thinking that it made him some kind of Bill Bowerman.

Of course Dave and Kyle kicked my ass up and down that hill. But I still loved it, and I missed them as I felt that clawing feeling in my lungs as I plodded toward the top of the hill.

And I especially missed sitting in a booth at The Mint after our runs, swilling coffee and gulping down the best corned beef hash in the world while solving the problems of the world, the city and the newspaper for which we worked.

Friday, June 11, 2010

The art of relaxation

The goals of this six-day "staycation" was to run, bike and to make some progress on building that basement laundry cabinet that has been in the works for the last seven months.

Oh, and I was supposed to make the dinners this week, too.

Along the way I had hoped to quaff coffee in the downtown coffee shop, take naps, read books and eat some food that is high in sugar and fat content.

I can say, at the start of my third day of this bout of R&R, that I've been successful on all fronts. Even made a dinner or two. (Granted, throwing hamburgers on the grill is pretty easy, and opening a bag of chips is more so, and Kris still whipped up a tasty side dish, but still...)

All those undertakings, however, were secondary, surface activities meant to help me realize the ultimate goal: To relax and recharge.

It would seem simple to take it easy, but that's not exactly the way I'm wired. I've taken these stay-at-home vacations before, and they've gone badly. I end up on the couch flipping through channels, looking for gumption to do anything but sit on the couch and flip through channels. At that point I usually turn to cookies and chips. And then I start thinking about all the things I should be doing. Then I started thinking about my life, and my career, and all the things I wanted to do but never quite got around to completing, or even starting. Then I end up in a worry loop of misery, with my stomach churning and my heart skipping beats every now and then.

I got close to the worry loop a couple of times, especially on the rainy days. But then I got up, and went out into the garage, and started fooling around with plywood and tools.

And it made me feel better.

The key to this staycation, I've found, is to find activities that allow some freedom of thought, but also require a sort of concentration on the task at hand.

A good strong drink after a bout of strenuous exercise seems to help, too.

Monday, May 31, 2010

A breath of fresh air

There's an old hackneyed axiom about Wisconsin weather: Don't like it? It'll change in five minutes.

There's the old joke: "Ohh, my feet hurt," Man 1 says.

"Why is that?" Man 2 asks.

"I just bought these new shoes, and they're a size too small."

"Why did you do that?"

"Because it feels so good when I take them off."

Mix the two together, and you get one of life's greatest simple pleasure: The breaking of a a heat wave.

It's been warm here. Not oppressively hot like what you find in other parts of the country or world, but uncharacteristically humid and hot for Wisconsin this time of year. Ever since I nearly keeled over from heat exhaustion in a haymow the summer of 1983, I have not dealt well with the heat. I tend to get headaches and stomachaches and in general feel as if my cranium has become a cooking pot for my brains when temps climb higher than 86 or so.

But despite this discomfort, I still like it, because I know it'll be a matter of time before the heat gets broken. Sometimes it's with a violent storm, sometimes with gusts of cool air. But it always is interesting.

It was about 87 degrees yesterday, and for the most part it was OK. But in the late afternoon things started getting uncomfortable, with that sticky feeling that finds its way into the body's wedges. We decided to keep the air conditioning off, because a line of rain clouds were heading our way.

After the thunderstorms and rain of last night, I opened the back sliding door this morning and felt that cool, clear rush of fresh air. Ahhh.

That feeling reminded me of the two times before in my life that rainstorms provided a rush of relief.

The first time could actually have been in the aforementioned summer of 1983. I was working on a neighbor's farm, and the weather was brutal. Mom and Dad left for vacation, the first time I spent a significant amount of time home alone. The farmer, Chuck, sent me home early because the storms were building in the west, and there wasn't much to do without an open, clear day.

Man it was hot. The air was thick with moisture, and sun seemed to pierce my skull. It was as if God was steaming us for lunch.

I heard the rumble of thunder far off in the west, and when I went outside, I could see the wall of clouds heading our way, a cavalry charge of thunderheads. As it got closer, tension built. Birds got quiet, and what breeze there was died down.

I could hear the rain hitting the trees a half mile away first, then felt that first gust of cool wind. As the storm got closer, with flashed of lightning here and there, I could see the wall of rain come towards. I stood my ground, and when it hit, I was soaked and almost cold. It felt great.

The second time that happened, I was an intern in Tomahawk. It was a record-breaking hot and dry summer, and spent much of my free time sprawled on the living room floor of my rented-one bedroom under the ceiling fan.

Sometimes I went to a local resort, and swam across a lake. I had just finished such a swim, probably about a half mile, and was sitting on a picnic table when the clouds approached. Again I heard it before felt it. The rain drops created this crackling sound on the lake, nature's snare drum beat. I watched the line of rain roughen the lake's surface, sat there as the line slowly came to me.

Then I was wet again, and cool.

Ahhhh.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Top (Biking) Gear

My favorite television show is "Top Gear," a British series about car, mostly high end cars. It's sort of "Car and Driver" meets "Mad" magazine.

One of the things that hooked me on the show was when when of the hosts tests a high-end Ferrari and is screaming down a track at 150 mph, there's a display of true joy.

I figured that I would probably never experience that sort of thrill. After all, these yahoos are driving Mercedes, Jaguars and BMWs, all powered by engines that could provide electricity for most medium-sized cities. The cost of these vehicles exceed the economies of most countries on this planet.

Unless there's some dramatic turn of fate, I'll never be able to afford such a vehicle, and until yesterday, I've resigned myself to never feeling that sort of rush. You, know, the feeling that you are in charge of machine that's at the cutting edge.

But yesterday I got a new bicycle. Sure, it sound ridiculous to compare a bike to a Ferrari, but as soon as I got on this machine, and rode it around the block, I understood why the Top Gear guys get carried away with their hooting and hollering and their twisted, over the top metaphors.

As I took this bike out for a shake down ride into the hills northeast of Wausau, I completely got it. I wanted to yell. It was like riding a rocket, and at the same time it was so comfortable and smooth that I felt like was flying. I'm not sure how this could be. But there it is.

So although I am trying to build my life on something other than things, this is one thing that has opened a new door to me. And wow, it felt good to go for a ride.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Trail fitness

I saw a couple of other runners out at Nine Mile County Forest and Recreational Area in Rib Mountain, which is rare.

This is the quiet time out there in the woods. The snow -- and even the wet -- from the cross country ski trails is long gone, but the area is still closed to mountain bikers. It's still open to hunters (it's turkey season, I think) and hikers, but for the most part, most people do that stuff in other parts of the county.

For me, it's my favorite time to go out there. The mosquitoes and ticks aren't overwhelming, and it's cool and the air has that spring dampness to it that feels good in the lungs. (I'll probably come down with blasto, though.)

So this is the time of year I like to ramp up my running, and the Nine Mile trails allow me to build up my legs without the pounding of pavement. Buddy loves it, because he can run off leash, sniffing and looking and running through the brush to his heart's delight.

I'm becoming increasingly addicted to trail running. I used to avoid it because it's slow. The uneven terrain means that my feet land in different positions, and the legs had to react in different ways. That's a sort of uncomfortable feeling. And the softness of the grass and dirt meant that muscles have to work harder.

It wasn't until earlier this year that the notion hit me that I should embrace trail running because of those things. That sore muscles and having to work harder would actually build strength, and make one faster on the roads. It's a testament to my own density that I hadn't made this obvious conclusion before.

So last week Buddy and I went out there on Saturday morning. Although I told myself that could go as slow as I wanted, and time didn't matter, I hit the stopwatch on the Timex anyway. I was sort of pleased that I finished the 10-k loop in a little over an hour. It wrecked me a bit. I was tired and sore when I got back, and both Buddy and I spent about two hours of recovery nap time on the couch.

We went back out there again yesterday, and soon into the run I felt kind of strange. It wasn't a slog like it usually is. I didn't feel heavy and slow. Instead I had the strange feeling of being quick and light. Was this a byproduct of blasto, I wondered?

Maybe it was. But as I clicked through kilometers, I noticed that I was going quite a bit faster than last week, on average, about a minute per mile.

I think I might be getting fitter. What a strange and wonderful feeling that is.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Competing

I got my first taste of real competition in the spring of 1982 at an indoor track meet in the Wausau West High School fieldhouse. I ran the 400 meters, or maybe it was 440 yards.

It did not go well.

I spent the night before worrying, with my stomach trying to turn itself inside out. I was almost trembling with fear as I toed the starting line. The gun went off and within the blink of an eye I was 20 yards behind my competitors, and I spend the next minute and 15 seconds experiencing acute physical and psychic pain.

I crossed the finish line not just last, but a spirit-crushing, crying into-your-pillow-at-night, I-can't-believe-how-slow-I-am kind of last. It is a testament to my stubbornness and masochism that I didn't quit track that day. But it also might be a testament to my stupidity, as well, because I was last in every single subsequent track race I entered, for the next three seasons.

Except for one.

It was a cold and rainy spring day in 1984 in Colby, and we were in a meet with two other teams. I can't remember where they were from. But it was an atrocious day to be outside, and the officials, in order to save time, decided to run boys and girls together in the mile race. Usually, the girls would run first, then the boys.

My ineptness as a track runner was surpassed by only one other quality: Sexism. I got to the starting line thinking to myself, "I cannot be beaten by a girl."

As the gun went off, I sprinted to the front of the pack, making sure that no one female was in front of my. As we headed around the first curve, one of my female teammates, a leggy miler named Bridget, tried to get in front of me, but I surged ahead of her, and kept on going.

That race was one of fear and determination, and my legs, instead of feeling leaden and dead, felt lively and strong, and I just ran and ran. I crossed the line in 5:04 for the mile. A mediocre performance by all standards, but wildly, incredibly fast for me. My regular times were 5:40 to 5:30.

I never ran that fast again.

As I've gotten a lot older, and have been beaten by girls, women and old ladies, I have dropped my caveman perspective toward female athletes. But more importantly, I have matured into a whole new attitude toward competition. I still get nervous before races, but I'm not really out to beat anyone. To me, we're all on the same team, and we're all there to help each other get the most out of ourselves. The competition is simply a catalyst for achievement.

And that's how I've come to view the Great Blog Showdown I've entered with my nephews Mark and Luke. It's not the winning or losing, it's that we're pushing each other to be better, more thoughtful bloggers and writers. It's about excellence.

That said, I've got to point out that I'm kicking their asses. Mark is several posts behind me, gasping for air. Luke, well, Luke is just pathetic when it comes to the Great Blog Showdown. All I can do at this point is look behind me, and see them choking in my dust. And it feels good.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

A photographer's lament

The title to this post is misleading. It's not a photographer's lament. It's my lament. And I'm not a photographer, although I occasionally take pictures.

More often, though, I wish I could (or would) have taken a picture. Such a situation occurred a couple of weeks ago.

I was running early in the morning -- pre-daylight-saving time change -- as the sun was coming up in the east. This is my favorite time to run, because the rising sun represents hope and the feeling that all things are possible, and I need to be reminded of both as much as possible.

By design, virtually all of my runs end along a street of quiet neighborhood street that overlooks Lake Wausau, and across the stretch of water, Rib Mountain. They are both pretty.

On this day, they were particularly pretty. As I said before, this was early, even more earlier than usual, and the first half of the run was predawn, and the sun was just blinking on the horizon when I reached this stretch of road. As I gazed across the water, a full moon planted itself just above Rib Mountain, and a ring of red from the sun colored the horizon where earth meets sky. It was astounding. It was breathtaking.

At one time on this planet of ours, people similar to us gazed up at the sky and made it their entertainment. They tracked the movements of the sun and the stars and made up stories around the pictures they saw above them. They were entranced by the flow of our universe, and found solace in its workings, even if they didn't understand them. When I saw the moon there, the red of the light, and the faint stars above, I felt a kinship with those forebears, and was jealous of them.

At that point, I thought to myself, I wish I could take a picture of this. And I vowed to bring a camera with me the next day.

The next day I didn't get up as early, and it was quite bright out by the time I made to the Lake Wausau overlook. The moon wasn't full anymore, but it still was kind of full. It wasn't as big as it was the day before, either. And it wasn't situated right above the mountain, but it was slightly askew. It was like this:



Damn you universe! You ruined my shot.